The Week Ahead.

For the next week I am going to be in house care for my father. Physically he is doing fine, he can walk on his own, I think he could do almost anything any 67 year old man could do. He wakes up eats breakfast, then takes a nap, then sits in a chair all day watching movie after movie, then he goes to bed. If I allowed myself to fall into that cycle my physical health would decay until I could no longer do anything else.

Honestly I am not sure how I feel toward my father, we have never really gotten close. Manly I fulfill what could only be described as a trade off for bringing me into this world and the great ability to play a full game of monopoly. I can not think of one moment that we have had a conversation where he passed on a pearl of wisdom to me. Most of the things that I have learned from him where lessons about the effects of certain mentalities.

When I was born he was already passed the age of being an active father, he always worked and never took time off for himself or us, when I was five he and my mother got divorced, during the toughest moments of our family he became more distant when the rest of the family was becoming closer.

Anyone that has lived in this town for 30 years knows who he is, and they say that he was one of the nicest people they knew, the man that always had a moment to talk.

Even though we have not formed a solid bond, and he has never been there for me; he is still an important part of my life. I know that I have to cherish the moments that I have.

This next week will be hard, watching my father die because he gave up on himself years ago and it is taking its toll on his body.

Happy New Year.

-NK