I am Content?

I sent a run of the mill instant message to my friend, asking him how he was doing. His response was 'good, you?' in return all I could say was 'idk' it was odd to me that I did not know how I was. I was not upset, I was not tired of something, I was not angry, I was not happy, I was not thrilled (all of which would have had the response, good or great.) I was in a state that seemed to have no real emotional attachment, it then came to me that I was in want of nothing.

I was content, I had spent the morning writing, I was watching some tv on the internet and I had just eaten a fantastic sandwich. Nothing was required to make the day any better. I am confused at my state, because when you want for nothing, you do not fight for anything. It has been a running theme for me, that you fight for things to progress as a person. So, normally I would say that the fact that I am not fighting for anything means that I am not progressing. But now not really wanting anything seems to be a great why to coast by and just look at things around me.

A friend of mine has fallen into a cycle that seems to tear her apart. She falls for a male, head over heals, they get along well. (what man does not want a female that is all his, in the beginning?) and then the person either decides the attention is too much and they move on, or she finds out something that got glossed over in the beginning and she feels betrayed. Each and every time blame falls on the male, 'he is a bastard' or 'he is a liar' never does the she look at the quick dive into relationship as her fault. Honestly I see this in two ways, be fine that the quickly started relationship ended quickly, or stop rushing into relationships.

I have seen many groups of people. There are people that like to fuck and move on. People that like to have a fuck buddy. People that like relationships short term. People that are purely monogamous and like long term relationships and marriages. I find nothing fundamentally wrong with any of those groups, but I think that people should be out right with their intentions. I think that they should talk to each other. Say two people have been dating for years, and one decides to move on; but for fear of hurting the other person they fuck on the side. If the other person has an STI then instead of just hurting the person for a while you run the risk of ruining their future.

-NK