Why should I ask you for change and never give any in return.

Because I have asked every viewer of this blog to change their life, and shape themselves to be better, I have decided to try the advice of a good friend of mine. I am going to stop searching for someone to date, it will be rough. Sometimes you just have to step back and take a breath.

To be truthful, must of my quest to find a women to date, was just to prove that I could still talk to them. I failed on a level that should never be obtained by a human. For this I am really sad, but it seems that at the current moment it is not meant to be.

My efforts to this cause have made a distraction in my life goal to write a novel. I have about five thought out to the finish, I just have to sit down and write them.

Goals for 2009:
1) Get the Writer's Collective off the ground. If I can make a smooth working group, I have actually found many people that would like to at least cycle through the group.
2) Write out all the ideas that have been piling up.
3) Ace all four of my classes.
4) Become content with the shitty place that is work.

I am going to come out and say it, I am scared shitless. To actually work on what I have dreamed about doing since I was in the seventh grade, is fucking frightening. To any non-writer, you might be thinking, what could be scary about writing this down. Well I will tell you why I am afraid.

If I write my heart out and I place all that I have into this pieces and they are bad, ( I was going to say something else but had an epiphany) I will write another one. I have never let the opinion of someone stop me from doing what I wanted before, why should I start with the one thing that I want to do most? The answer is I should not allow the fear of rejection by others stop me in anyway.